[100 Challenge] Song E Yoon_27

Trauma

I had nightmares all night last night. I think I had trauma.

Yesterday morning, Dante, one of the residency artists, cut off his finger to cook. That was not bad, but it was not good enough. We were a little bit surprised. After hemostasis and disinfection, the band was wound, but the pain must have been severe because it was slashed with a knife at a considerable depth with an oblique line.

I tend to feel the pain of the dead. Dante was surprised and said he was fine, but I felt pain in his expression and behavior. I still feel like my heart is cringing when I think about it.

When I was 9 years old, I stayed home alone. I was back home after school. I wanted to make something with sorghum straw, so I used Knigf to cut the sticks. But I was terrible at making it, so I combined the flesh off my second left finger’s skin. There was a lot of blood. The hemostasis hasn't been going well for a while and hurts a lot. Even if I put on a band, the blood kept leaking out. I saved money at home and went to a nearby pharmacy by myself. Then I bought bandages and disinfectants and treated myself. After a long time, the blood started to stop. Then my parents came.

Even now, it's hard to remember that time. I still have scars on my injured leg on my hand. I'm not sick anymore. I have a little scar, but it's still hard when I think about that time. The doctor said that the way to overcome trauma is to believe it's no big deal, but usually, it's okay. Still, when I experience a similar situation again, my heart tightens without realizing it.

How severe is the trauma of people who have faced so much pain in their lives when even these minor wounds cause trauma?

Everyone lives with their trauma.